Two Pink Lines

I haven't been posting. Sorry... I haven't even been reading blogs lately. I just can't get myself to sit still long enough.

I'm a bit down about being out of work. I'm worried about not having money to pay the bills. I'm stressed about interviews and finding the right job. My Ex-InLaws are coming to visit and I really really want to spend time with them but I don't want anyone to feel awkward or weird. I don't want to put Ex in a bad situation with his girlfriend. I don't want SM to be uncomfortable with me being there with Ex's family. But I have known and loved these fabulous people for 13+ years. I miss them and I want to spend as much time with them as possible. Everyone says they are OK with it. I guess I'm just being hyper sensitive here. I hope.

All these feelings and worries have me so stressed out that I'm having the most bizzare dreams. For the past 2 weeks it's been nothing but pregnant dreams. Everything from the bigger boobs to the magic plus sign on the test. My belly gets big and I can feel the baby move. These are vivid dreams. And in each and every dream I'm THRILLED to be pregnant again. It's nuts.

I'm pregnant - only in my dreams - Thank God!