Wednesday, July 2, 2008

Two Pink Lines

I haven't been posting. Sorry... I haven't even been reading blogs lately. I just can't get myself to sit still long enough.

I'm a bit down about being out of work. I'm worried about not having money to pay the bills. I'm stressed about interviews and finding the right job. My Ex-InLaws are coming to visit and I really really want to spend time with them but I don't want anyone to feel awkward or weird. I don't want to put Ex in a bad situation with his girlfriend. I don't want SM to be uncomfortable with me being there with Ex's family. But I have known and loved these fabulous people for 13+ years. I miss them and I want to spend as much time with them as possible. Everyone says they are OK with it. I guess I'm just being hyper sensitive here. I hope.

All these feelings and worries have me so stressed out that I'm having the most bizzare dreams. For the past 2 weeks it's been nothing but pregnant dreams. Everything from the bigger boobs to the magic plus sign on the test. My belly gets big and I can feel the baby move. These are vivid dreams. And in each and every dream I'm THRILLED to be pregnant again. It's nuts.

I'm pregnant - only in my dreams - Thank God!

6 comments:

Renaissance Woman said...

Are you sure??? Welcome back. Searching for jobs is stressful enough and then add the family visits and that is too much. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that the perfect job comes your way.

CP said...

Honey, you are stressed! I feel for you. Hang in there!

Thanks for stopping by 3giraffes. Come back soon!

CP said...

Honey, you are stressed! I feel for you. Hang in there!

Thanks for stopping by 3giraffes. Come back soon!

Stacie said...

YIKES...pregnant dreams freak me out.

Ev said...

I'm a few blogs behind, myself...

Pregnant dreams: Like maybe the birth of new opportunities? Like you're about to produce something new and cool like a better life or a new perspective?

Congratulations on your bouncing baby life!

*and good luck with the job hunt. I feel for ya. :-(

SP said...

I have been stressed but I love Ev's comment about the birth of new opportunities. I think that willmake my dreams much better to wake up from now.