Thursday, January 14, 2010

Befuddled

Leave it to Stacie to get my lazy ass back over here to write... something. And no honey, he didn't actually poop on me. It was... *sigh* I really don't know how to explain it. It was a whole bunch of little things that added up to one big thing I couldn't put a name to. In short, he's a man. Here's the thing; I will put up with a certain amount of man "crap" if I'm into a guy. In fact, I think that any woman, if she is really into a man, will rationalize or explain away an entire truckload of man crap (to her benefit or detriment, depending on the circumstances). The problem with Roo was that I didn't think I was into him enough to put in the effort to get past the crap. Of course, as soon as I open my big cyber mouth and post that he surprised me and got all cute and romantic. So, I'm not really sure what I'm doing here other than just hanging out and waiting to see what happens next.
* Funny side note, an old army buddy posted something on his Facebook page and called him Rooster! I'm dying to know the story behind that nickname.

LawnBoy... remember him? Yes, he's still around and really quite handy thank you very much. We've been hanging out -Just as friends- and there's been no pressure. But I keep asking myself why I can't get into this guy. What the hell is wrong with me? He's cute. He's funny and a hard worker. He's dependable and honest. He's a smart ass who doesn't hesitate to give me crap. He has a twisted sense of humor just like mine. He actually does things to take care of me. He treats me like a queen. I've never really given this a shot and part of me feels like I should because what if I'm throwing away something amazing...

So here are my questions:
  1. Is chemistry something that can develop over time?
  2. Is it OK to not have a clue what the hell I want from a relationship I'm actually in?

Chime in people, my future love life and the juicey-ness of my posts may depend on your answers.

3 comments:

Stacie's Madness said...

FUCK YES, my job is done if it is just to get you posting again...

and um, super secret.. (psst) let's be facebook buds....k? but don't tell anyone that I have a facebook oh and don't mention the blog on the facebook either...
I'm all stealthy.

anyway...

I have a "friend"...and well, he sounds like lawn boy...in that, I just didn't see him that way...until I was divorcing and he expressed interest.

it was a rocky start, to say the least, but now that things are rolling???? and by ROLLING I totally mean in the sack...um, it's awesome...

I don't know if I am over romantacizing, cause I am notorious for that, but it's good...right now...and that's all I'm wanting.

I am still going to date, if anyone asks me out...and continue on like a single person, cause I think I deserve to...but it sure as hell is nice having him around (and getting laid).

anyways...:) guess that's something I just haven't spilled on my blog yet...and well, your comments took the beating for it. lol

Steph said...

hmm... I am not going to lie, I have quite often had the no idea what the hell I want from you relationship. It was usually during a time when the sole reason I was dating was to get over someone else, make someone else jealous, or I was bored shitless. They did not end well.

Making chemistry where there is none is kind of a disaster for me too. HOWEVER, i've definitely had friend-boys suddenly switch to god I want him as my boyfriends, so I say as long as Lawn Boy honestly knows how you feel, there's no harm in seeing if he can flick your switch. :)

SP said...

And this is what one of the guys on Guy Speak has to say on the subject: http://tinyurl.com/y8fab9w

Oh hell...