Befuddled

Leave it to Stacie to get my lazy ass back over here to write... something. And no honey, he didn't actually poop on me. It was... *sigh* I really don't know how to explain it. It was a whole bunch of little things that added up to one big thing I couldn't put a name to. In short, he's a man. Here's the thing; I will put up with a certain amount of man "crap" if I'm into a guy. In fact, I think that any woman, if she is really into a man, will rationalize or explain away an entire truckload of man crap (to her benefit or detriment, depending on the circumstances). The problem with Roo was that I didn't think I was into him enough to put in the effort to get past the crap. Of course, as soon as I open my big cyber mouth and post that he surprised me and got all cute and romantic. So, I'm not really sure what I'm doing here other than just hanging out and waiting to see what happens next.
* Funny side note, an old army buddy posted something on his Facebook page and called him Rooster! I'm dying to know the story behind that nickname.

LawnBoy... remember him? Yes, he's still around and really quite handy thank you very much. We've been hanging out -Just as friends- and there's been no pressure. But I keep asking myself why I can't get into this guy. What the hell is wrong with me? He's cute. He's funny and a hard worker. He's dependable and honest. He's a smart ass who doesn't hesitate to give me crap. He has a twisted sense of humor just like mine. He actually does things to take care of me. He treats me like a queen. I've never really given this a shot and part of me feels like I should because what if I'm throwing away something amazing...

So here are my questions:

1. Is chemistry something that can develop over time?
2. Is it OK to not have a clue what the hell I want from a relationship I'm actually in?

Chime in people, my future love life and the juicey-ness of my posts may depend on your answers.